Sexual Frustration

Totally distracted tonight, trying not to get too caught up in the physical desires I have. Meditating on it earlier, I realized that it was only a sign of inner weakness. The desire for gratification is being pushed out my mind to make way for the more important things.

We are in a battle, and my alliances are turning against each other. Ah WWIII. Death to my comrades. A deep emptiness as they fall, and I am still standing, bloodied but uninjured. The worst part is I think that I might have killed my friends but I cannot be sure.

Scared and alone.